Let's get this over with...
24) I had a huge crush on Mario (as in Super Mario) as a child. Weird, I know. Then I had a crush on Ringo Starr from the Beatles, and Mike Nesmith from the Monkees in my junior high years; and let's not forget Rex Harrison from My Fair Lady, etc. And then I grew up. :)
25) I like to read. I'm all about Jane Austen, Charlotte Bronte, Elizabeth Gaskell, etc. I love literature from the 1800's that is clean and portrays a great moral message. Plus, I like the clean romance. I'm a romantic on the inside, but which girl isn't?
There, I'm done. Sheesh. I'm ready to just WRITE about whatever.
So this post really has no purpose other than to be used to record thoughts out of my head. I'm just sitting here on my lunch break, feeling as if I am looking at the horizon or a pinnacle of a mountain. I have no idea what lies ahead for Niklas and me in anything. It's amazing to me to think that he will be staring his last year in school this fall, and graduate (fingers crossed!) by July 2011. That means he has to start preparing to apply to different graduate schools. Is that possible?? Have I really been in Idaho for over 2 years since we married? Where did all that time go? And where are we going to end up? Idaho, or somewhere else?
And I'll be graduating with my online Master's degree in Accounting in May 2011. Since the time I had started my college classes I had no idea why I was pursuing a Master's degree. Sounds foolish, right? All I knew was that I had this crazy-strong desire to go back to school, and that desire was non-existent after graduating with my Bachelor's degree. So a couple days ago I was in an employee evaluation meeting with my boss and he tells me he thinks I should become a CPA. And suddenly the stars aligned: he's right. I had NO desire to take that track; and suddenly it hit me that that's the right way to go, that is why I was given the desire to get my Master's degree. Pretty simple, right? I had already figured from the start that that was why I was getting this second degree, and I didn't like it. But I was pursuing the Master's anyway since I felt it was right. However, in gist, I have had no desire to become a CPA because I am not a career person and want, more than anything, to be a full-time mother. But after that meeting a desire was kindled in me, and I know it wasn't from me. It is going to be a hard, long road, but I am determined and know I'll recieve help since it is the right track. I know that anything that will allow me to do some work from my own home to help our little family out financially in the long-run will be beneficial. So...wish me luck.
Also, I realized while I had all of this running in my mind that my attitude about life isn't always so good. I figured once my Master's degree was over, then I could relax = be happier since I would have less on my plate. But obviously the CPA thing has changed that. And add the fact that children will be had in time (no, I'm not pregnant, just saying). So that basically means that my life will be forever busy. There is not going to be a time where I will have nothing to worry about, less responsibilities. It's always going to be this way! Then why am I not choosing to be happy now and enjoy the present? It's not that I've been unhappy per se, but I've wanted to move on with life in so many ways when I can't yet. Instead of looking at it as a burden, I've needed to see and realize that each day is a gift from God. And who am I tell Him that it isn't enough? That it isn't fulfilling? I read this article in the March 2010 Ensign that hit home for me: we should not only endure our time here on earth; but endure it well and find joy in all that we undertake. And I know that to be true with all my heart. Cheers for the time we have here now to learn and grow each and every day!
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